my husband is driving me crazy

So he still hasnt found work. The economy sucks ugh. However hes only looking for overnight positions. I have told him over and over again that i dont feel safe when im home alone just me and the baby. But he doesnt care. Hes not even attempting to find a job during the day. I understand hes frustrated but Im frustrated too. Its like he tries to find the best way to not spend time with me and Hayden. Like right now he comes in my room at 7 this morning and says hes doing something to my car for me adn dont come outside till hes done. Well its now 10 and hes still not done. Then i ask him is he really doing something for me or is he just working on the car in general and saying its for me. Of course no answer. Why does he insist on driving me crazy? Everyday hes out doing something to the cars or whatever. Its like hes avoiding me. He could get a job with the border patrol a friend of ours brother is high up in the border patrol and said he would make sure he got hired provided he passes the background check and what not but donny says its too much like the military. Oh my gosh seriously? Come on you sign on at 40,000 for the first year with benefits and everything. His excuse now is the application process takes too long. Well if he applied with the border patrol i would be ok with him having something overnight temporarily till he got hired with the border patrol. But its more important for him to not be owned by the government than to support his family. Im so tired of this crap. What am i supposed to do?

so my husband lost his job

Donny missed last weekend because we had to bring Hayden to the ER cause he was spitting up and had diarhea. Well he had his days off and htey let him work all week. And they even let him work all night monday night. Around 5am they bring him in the office and said he had 5 absences so he was fired. When we went in later that day to prove them wrong and ask for his job back they found out it was only 2 absences so the manager made up some stupid new rule and fired him anyways. I am soooooo mad. Hes applied for everything he can think of and we are hoping he will get something soon. So i have now decided we are no longer shopping at walmart. Not that the loss of our business will do anything but I just dont want to go in there anymore so once he has gotten his last check thats it. And that is my news for the day.

confessions of a newlywed

confessions of a newlywed

I need a house

So this is the second day in a row that my neighbor has found it necessary to blast music at 5:30 am seriously he knows i have a baby and sleep is precious why does he insist on being like that. Hes a nice guy always been nice to me so i dont want to get him in trouble but i NEED my sleep. Hopefully i dont fall asleep in church today.

so im gonna be an auntie

Im excited even if my brother does hate me. Its still exciting. Im getting along with my SIL now and im so happy for her. She is due on Haydens bday. Its just too bad we dont live close together so Hayden and her baby can know each other and have someone to play with. Guess were gonna have to move closer since we are in the middle of nowhere lol. Ok im done rambling. Im just so excited!

So now im a racist?

Just because i dont like who was elected president im all of a sudden racist? How about the fact that the person elected is racist. Saying hes ashamed that his mother is white? But no im the racist. It has nothing to do with him being black but of course i could always say they didnt like mccain cause hes white. oh wait then id still be racist because white people cant pull the race card. well america is goin to hell. i know i dont want to be here when it happens. theres gonna be a race war and everything. i want no part of it.

My poor baby is sick :(

I took him to the dr yesterday and he has acute sinusitis. Poor baby. Hes so miserable. On a positive note he weighs 11lbs 3oz. Little porker he is lol. Hes on antibiotics and hopefully they take care of it. Here he is yesterday

my baby boy is almost 3 months

Next week my precious baby boy will be 3 months old. Where has the time gone? Every day he does something new and surprises me. I am so proud of him. Hes over 10lbs now. I will know for sure how much he weighs on monday because he has a drs appt because hes got a cold or something. I will update then. I will close for now since hes sleeping i need to make dinner.

So Hayden is growing up too fast already

So hes been soooo fussy lately and had a stuffy nose my friend came over and checked him out and hes TEETHING! i cant believe my itty bitty baby is 10lbs and teething already. boy they arent kidding when they say kids grow up fast! seems like just yesterday i was being wheeled out of the hospital with that tiny baby in my arms.

Haydens announcement a little late

Hayden is 2 months old

My poor baby had his shots on tuesday. I felt so bad for him. Hes all happy one second then all of a sudden they stab him in the leg i think thats mean. but it has to be done. Hes getting so big. Hes 9lbs 5oz 22 inches long.

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Hayden is finally here!

I went in to the Dr on Tuesday 7/29 for my u/s to check my AFI. They took my bp and it was 159/120. Dr came in and asked if I had my NST yet that day and i said im headed there next. He said well youre not going home. So he did my u/s and said Hayden weighed approx. 7.5lbs and there was no sense in keeping him in there since my due date was only 5 days away. So off to the hospital we go. I get in my room and everything starts happening really fast. They started pitocin and magnesium sulfate (for my bp). Both of which suck by the way lol. Pretty soon im having pretty strong contractions so i ask for my epidural. The anesthesiologist comes in and does my epidural and pretty soon im looking at the machine saying hey there goes another one lol. Well about 2 hours later the epidural stops working. So back comes dr cho to re-do my epidural. well i get comfy but only on my left side i felt everything on my right side. So dr cho comes in and ups my dose from 10 to 13 and gives me lidocaine. well that worked till i was 9 cm then i started feeling everything again. By then i was demanding they give me something or i wasnt pushing and the baby was gonna stay in forever or they needed to find another way to get him out. lol. Donny held my hand the whole time and kept passing me my water. My bp ended up dropping really low and haydens heartrate dropped to like 98 so they gave me ephedrine. They had me on oxygen and i could literally peel my lips off they wre so dry. Poor donny i could tell was worried about me he was freaked out. The nurse checked me and said i only had a lip left so she wanted to see if i could push his head past the lip. so we tried and nothing so she kept checking my vitals and telling me to breath in through my nose and out through my mouth finally i turned my head like in the exorcist lol and yelled at her its not working. by this time i could feel his head coming down i told them hes coming where the hell is the doctor. well they didnt believeme so they ahd me push once to practice since they said first time moms need the practice cause they end up pushing for a long time well his head was right there and so they rolled me on my side and held my legs closed tellng me not to push. i told them im not pushing hes coming on his own then all of a sudden there was his head haging out. dr walks in and starts to introduce himself and sees my baby hanging out and the nurse delivered him. i had a small tear 2 stitches and i threw up 3 or 4 times. they took hayden and cleaned him up i didnt even get to see him and i had to ask twice if he was ok before they told me he was fine just groggy from the magnesium. i didnt get to see my little man for 2 1/2 hours but donny went and saw him and took pictures. after 13 1/2 hours of labor i finally had my precious baby boy. 6lbs 3oz 20 inches long

so i was in the hospital

well i went to my dr appt on thursday and my blood pressure was up 140/110 eeek!!!! so off to the hospital he sent me. had a 24 hour urine collection, 2 non stress tests and an ultrasound. it was so fun seeing my little boy again. and hes definitely a boy lol. donny said "yep thats my boy" lol. my urine came back normal so he sent me home and said hes gonna induce by 39 weeks. so in 2 weeks or less we could have our little boy. im excited and nervous at the same time. but i cant wait till we bring our little guy home. i have to go for 2 non stress tests a week and one u/s a week which works for me cause that means i get to hear his heartbeat and see him more.

Baby shower

Its sooooooo frustrating. But its gonna be great. Tomorrow is my baby shower which is really just gonna be a barbeque which will be fun. Its just frustrating getting ready for it. Seeing as how its supposed to be something fun your friends or family plan for you but me and donny are doing all the work.Donny is grilling burgers, chicken making potato salad. im baking a cake and we are both decorating. the upside? We only had to buy the cake and the soda. Mike paid for everything else lol. We had to plan it for his day off so he could be there seeing as it is his kid and some of the people i invited are all mad because i didnt plan it for their day off well it is my baby right? lol. ill post some pictures tomorrow!

its been a long time

So i figured i would update what has happened in the last year. Well in November of 2007 i found out we are expecting our first baby! I am now 36 weeks pregnant with our baby boy. Im due August 3, 2008 and i cant wait to meet him. So now my title is going to change once again from wifey to mommy. I cant wait to hold my Hayden.

On to other news. As you read in my last post i was having issues with my brothers girlfriend. Well now shes his wife but thats beside the point. In February i was really having issues and posted a blog about it on my myspace page and my cousins the wonderful girls they are decided to cause some drama and go to her and tell her about it. So that caused a big riff between me and my brother so now he hates me for having an opinion. And sits there and contradicts himeself by saying you dont mess with the people i care about yet the cousins were causing all this stress on me but it was ok with him. so now according to my cousins im no longer their family nd my brother hates me. but i really dont care because i have my family and i dont need anyone else.

anyways thats my news as of late so in the next few weeks we will be having a new addition.