why do i deal with it

I am so tired of having a dictator for a husband. We get our taxes yesterday, he goes straight to my wallet and takes the money and decides how we will spend it. He complains if i want to get something for our son. He wants to spend 1600 of it on the stinkin car for extra crap we dont need but only wants to give me 200 to get clothes for me and hayden. he gets a bed and decides what kind of bed we get it doesnt matter what i want. we go to walmart to get bedding for the bed and he decides what we are getting which is ugly by the way. Im so over his crap its not even funny. He makes fun of me going to church. it seems like he swears more because it bothers me. hes constantly putting me down for my weight and tells me that the only way i can get new clothes for myself is if i throw everything i currently have away. wait a minute i paid taxes too this year thats my money too if i didnt give birth to hayden we wouldnt have gotten 2000 of that tax return. why does he get to decided on everything? i told him last night that a couple friends and i wanted to go out for a little bit and my friends husband said he could come over there and he would help him with hayden what does he say to me? you want me to watch hayden after working all day? are you freakin kidding me? he is your son too when do i get a break my job is never done. i love my son dearly but sometimes i need a little bit to myself. how could i marry someone so stinkin selfish. i am so frustrated. he is not the same person i married. hes grumpy hes a dictator and hes a control freak and i dont know how much more i can take.